Oh my god I just want new clothes.
I think of how much I will miss, but realize how much of what I will miss has already changed. I look around at the people that I used to be close to. I look at how much I’ve grown and how stuck I feel lately. I see people moving on and living their lives only to see how far behind of everyone I feel. Sometimes I feel like a failure and other times sometimes I feel like a success. So I guess the best thing for me to do is just go. Maybe once I spread my wings a little I’ll be able to find something more so I won’t feel so hopelessly lost. Maybe the ones that say will miss me will keep in contact, but maybe they won’t. I’ll just have to remember what once was and cherish it and hope it will always be there. It makes me sad just thinking about it. How can what I’ve always wanted be what makes me so upset. Do I even have what it takes to be successful at what I love or will it all be for nothing? All I can do is just go.
I just want to be done with school. Forever.
Literally got so excited when I heard about The ARTPOP Ball being announced. I couldn’t stop shaking. I wasn’t able to instantly burst out singing and dancing because I was at work. Something is wrong with me.
I’m upset. I don’t even know how to explain it, but I am.
For anyone feeling alone tonight.